There are just too many victims in this world. A phenomenon I do not understand. Even though it suits me.
I log on to the virtual city, the realm of the senseless, in disguise. Tonight I am Lavender_Guest, cyberoque immortal offering sex and sudden death. Purple becomes my ciphered self and within seconds there is a clamour of disembodied voices, offering themselves as my freshkill. Their mindless eagerness to embrace death surprises me, sharpening the edges of my cynicism.
A: Sounds like an interesting combination, sex and sudden death!
B: Would it be possible to receive the sex part and not the sudden death?
C: Love me or kill me, or something... :)
D: Interesting description.
E: I like danger too.
F: Sounds like fun. 120 days of sodom and all that.
G: Are you one that provides the sudden death?
I tell them that to play my game one must be seriously self-destructive. They refute this, claiming that sometimes people just put their life at risk and do dangerous things to themselves without actually desiring death. G asserts that he likes erotic psychopaths.
Me: Why? You have a death wish? You offer yourself to be my thrill kill?
B: Iíll be your thrill kill.
I toy with the fools. Demanding that they prove themselves worthy of dying by my hands.
G: I'd prefer strangulation to stabbing? By what means do you provide death? Will you let me see my skin off of my body?
Me: Strangulation is a possibility, but I do not know whether I wish to provide you with the pleasure of an orgasm at the moment of your expiry.
H: You want credentials...how about well built, rich, into computers, future dentist, and all around nice guy!
A regular character tries to unmask me, saying that I have a deep-seated psycho weirdness going on. She yells that I am sick. I canít dispute this, yet no-one else sides with her.
G is still obsessed with short term gains, asking what would be the point of letting me kill him if he didn;'t have an orgasm.I tell him to shut up and bone up on some Taoist texts and then get back to me. What a loser!
K: So have you ever considered killing anyone in real life?
Me: I haven't considered it, I have killed. That is why I warn people that my games are serious.
M: Do you always kill in your games, or just by accident?
Me: It was no accident, the person wanted it to be the natural conclusion of the game we had been playing for many months.
A wave of nausea perversely overcomes me as the ten or so wannabe victims vy for my fatal favours. I log out and take a shower, feeling emptier than usual.